But I am not.
And I am ok.
Yes, it has stung the past week or so whenever I leave the house and people ask me when I am headed to Boston, or the surprised look on people's faces when I tell them I am not going. One guy even tried to argue with me after I explained to him that I wasn't racing in Boston because I got injured and have only been running again for five weeks. He said, "I see you running all over the place again!" It's hard for people to understand I guess when they don't understand how marathon training works.
Yes, I feel like the entire running world is on it's way to Boston for a marathon weekend that will be even more magical and meaningful than most years, and I feel a little left out. I truly believe that this weekend we will see the very best of the running community.
And yes, I have a VERY strong desire to race Boston. I don't just want to run it again, I want to race it. I want to show up to that start line and give the course and the race and all of it's history my A+ effort and the respect it deserves.
I got to Boston in very good shape in 2012, but Mother Nature threw a monkey wrench into my racing plans with 80-90 degree temps (after leaving snow behind in Wyoming). Last year I was planning on running it and then our family schedule made it very tough for me to go, so I ended up being home safe and sound when the tragedy occurred. As I watched the awful news footage, and saw the posts all over social media from friends who were there, and answered worried phone calls from family and friends who were worried I was there, I knew right away that I wanted to run Boston this year.
But sometimes God has other plans, and I have learned to accept that. Even though the injury was miserable and missing out on Boston this year is a disappointment, I am so grateful for the path my running is on right now and how well things are going. I am looking forward to Easter weekend home with my family. I am excited to watch the Boston Marathon on TV and cheer on the elites and friends alike. And I sure as heck am planning on being there to race next year.
GOOD LUCK to all of you who are running in Boston on Monday. Enjoy the experience, and being a part of something so awesome. My heart, thoughts, and prayers will be with the runners and the city.
|Me in my Boston jacket from 2012|
|The day before Boston 2012 at the finish line (this is as close as I got until the race!)|