In the spirit of keeping it real on this blog, I am sharing some honest thoughts.
Some days doubt whispers in my mind.
It whispers that I am not fast enough, that I am not strong enough, that I can't and won't be as good as I want to be. It whispers that I am not as good as others. It whispers that I am putting in all this hard work for nothing. It whispers that I can't do it. It whispers that I am fooling myself thinking I can be the kind of marathoner I dream of being.
I am not going to lie and say I never doubt myself, because I do. It hurts to work so hard towards something and not see the results you want. It's frustrating. It's discouraging. It lets doubt creep in to your head and whisper nasty thoughts.
When doubt whispers, we have two choices. We can listen - we can get discouraged - we can believe the lies - we can quit and give up.
Or, we can tell doubt to shut up.
Today I let doubt slip in and let myself feel discouraged.
But it didn't last long. I reminded myself of how far I have come in a short period of time. I reminded myself how much work I have done. I reminded myself of the race successes I have had. I reminded myself not to compare myself to others, and that I will progress at my own pace. I reminded myself of all the people who love me, support me, believe in me, encourage me, lift me up, and help me fly. I reminded myself how much I love this sport, and that that is why I am doing what I am doing. And I reminded myself that my best, whatever that turns out to be, will be good enough.
I told doubt to shut up.
I will not believe the lies that doubt whispers. I will not doubt myself. I WILL believe in myself. I will believe in my training. I will believe in my coach. I will believe in the heart and determination that I have.
And I will get back to work. :)
Faith always triumphs over doubt.
"Inaction breeds doubt and fear. Action breeds
confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit home and
think about it. Go out and get busy." - Dale Carnegie