I made it back home tonight after two days on the road. Noah had three appointments at the children's hospital in Salt Lake and one procedure. It is a three-hour drive each way and the weather has been crazy snowy. LONG TWO DAYS. I am super glad to be home (and so is Noah, who was a total angel).
First off, THANK YOU to all of you for your overwhelming support and encouragement in response to my Daring Adventure post. I had a moment of panic after I posted it, but I woke up the next morning feeling excited and pumped about the goal of running in the Olympic marathon trials, and have felt that way ever since.
I did get one comment (of course from "Anonymous") that I wanted to address. Here is the comment-
"I spent my 30's committed (consumed/obsessed) over running... training,
competing, striving for PR's at all distances,... I spent so much time,
energy (physical, emotional, spiritual) and money on my running. Now in
my mid 40's, I eat well and still run 6 days a week to keep my body fit
and healthy, but I am not consumed with my running. Oh, how I wish I
could have back all that time, energy & money I spent on running
throughout my 30's... I could have used that time, energy and money for
things that last for eternity. When I die, the Lord will not ask how my
training went or what my PR's were... in light of eternity, it is all
First I want to say, that if something happened tomorrow and I could never run another mile, I would not regret a single minute, dollar, or ounce of energy that I have spent on my running. Not one.
I enjoy running. I would even say I love running. I love how running makes me feel. I enjoy racing. I love pushing myself to get better and faster. I love competing. I love training.
But, I am not consumed with running. I am not obsessed with running. My life is well-balanced. Busy, but balanced.
You could not find a more dedicated and attentive wife or mother than me. I don't know anyone with a happier marriage, and the relationship I have with Josh is my greatest blessing in life. I put a great deal of time and emotional energy into keeping our marriage happy and strong (and so does Josh, which is why things work so well).
I have 12 kids. I take time every day to connect one on one with each of my kids, and of course we have tons of family time. I do all the usual "mom" stuff of cleaning, laundry, cooking, driving, homework, etc. etc. etc. and I handle five therapists and seven doctors/clinics for my son with special needs, along with all of his extra care. (And because I am asked all the time, no, I do not have any help, other than my awesome husband). Being mom is a whole lot of work, but is also a whole lot of fun, and I am more blessed than I ever dreamed I would be.
I have an emotionally challenging job, finding adoptive families for special needs children. I have a church calling. I have treasured relationships with extended family and friends. I pray every day and read scriptures every day. My life is rich and full.
I do not usually write about religion on my blog, but I am a very religious person and wanted to address that part of the comment. I completely disagree that the Lord doesn't care about my running and that it is meaningless. I believe that God gave all of us individual talents and passions, and that He wants us to develop and pursue them. And I believe that when we follow our God-given talents and passions, great things can happen in our lives and we can have a great impact on the lives of others.
In light of eternity, I love my life. I am so very happy with
my life. I am a work in progress and there is always room for
improvement, but overall, I believe I am doing what God wants me to with my life, and I am proud of how I spend my time, my energy,
and my money (the overwhelming majority of all three go to my husband and our kids). To me, and I believe to the Lord as well, it all has great meaning. Does the Lord care what my marathon PR is? Probably not. But I believe He cares about my talents and my dreams.
Running has given me so much. My self-esteem, confidence, patience, and health are all much improved since I started running. I have an inner-peace that I truly believe exists because I found a part of myself that had just been hanging out, waiting for me to discover it. I know that I am a better wife and mother since I started running. And I refuse to feel guilty about the small percentage of time, energy, and money that I put towards myself.
So no, I don't regret a single minute, dollar, or ounce of
energy I have put into my running. The only regret I have about running
is that I didn't discover it sooner.
As I chase after my dream of running in the Olympic marathon trials, I am going to keep the same balance that I have in my life now. My priorities are in order. Since I do most of my running while most of my family is still sleeping, it will continue to have minimal impact on the day to day life of my family. At the same time, I will be showing my kids that moms can and should have their own personal talents, interests, hobbies, etc. and hopefully will be setting a good example about not being afraid to follow your dreams and set big goals, and how hard work and dedication can help you achieve those goals.